Thoughts on packing up your missionary:
-sending a kid on a mission is a lot of work. Like...a lot!
- You'll want to pack up your whole heart and send it with your child
- You'll buy exorbitant amounts of Canadian chocolate to compensate for the fact that you can't send your whole heart.
- You will ride a roller coaster of emotions.
- You'll struggle between not wanting your child to go and wishing they were already gone (the middle, waiting zone is an aweful place to be.)
- You cling to the hope that on the other side of that big looming goodbye, is joy, and love, and growth.
A pop in goodbye from the Steven's family and one last visit to say goodbye to Grandpa.
Close to midnight, the night before Abby's flight, I looked out my front window to see my sister Jewel slaving away in our driveway, making one of her famous chalk messages.
What a delight for Abby to wake up to!
On the day of Abby's flight, we left early enough to catch a 10:00 am "lunch" at Popeyes. That was what we had deemed Abby's "final meal" with us. We were just a minute or two from the International Airport, and even as we ate, I could tell that Abby was feeling anxious to get going.
Airport Abby is a sight to behold.
She has great street smarts and can find her way around pretty well, but the fear of missing a flight, or not making it through customs is enough to push her to the edge of reason.
As a result- our goodbyes happened as soon as we reached her gate.
Never mind the fact that we were an hour earlier than the required "two hours early."
Never mind the fact that the departure gate was mere feet away from us.
Abby would not rest easy until she was safely on the other side of it.
As a result, I was personally deprived of the minutes I had planned on doting and crying and lamenting her impending absence.
This moment was hard.
Harder than sending her off to school. (It certainly felt more vulnerable.)
I wanted to sit there for three more hours and watch Abby's flight take off, but John said that was crazy talk. He's so pragmatic, to him, this all just seemed like the next logical step for our family.
And, I suppose it was.
It's just, the steps my family is taking these days seem might big, if you ask me.
I think it is okay to just sit and cry about it, every now and then.